“But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect.
No, I worked harder than all of them — yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me”(1 Corinthians 15:10).
If you want to see yourself clearly, attempt something great. I’m in the process of writing a book. I never dreamed in a million years that I would write a book. In fact, once I truly surrendered my life to Christ, I’ve had dreams come true that I didn’t even know I had. Most of them have been God-sized tasks. I’ve learned that when I feel called to do something larger than myslef, it’s a God assignment that requires God-sized grace and power.
Even though I know in my mind it’s a God-sized task, I try and attempt the project on my own strength. Ugh! This gets me nowhere. When I fall short, I get discouraged. I say things to myself like, “I knew I couldn’t do this. Or, I’m not good enough or smart enough to take on such a task.” The truth is, I’m not able to accomplish a God-sized project on my own. God never intended me to do so. At the same time, He doesn’t want me to fret over it. He doesn’t want me to become discouraged and give up. No. He wants me to trust Him and allow His power to work through me to accomplish all He’s called me to do.
That’s why I love the opening verse. It’s only by God’s grace that I can do anything! Even though, like Paul, it’s my responsibility to work hard and finish well the task God puts before me, I still need His power and grace to do so.
The truth is you and I came into this world poor and with nothing. God endowed us with gifts, abilities, personalities, creativity and intelligence. Without these gifts, we are nothing and can do nothing. Therefore, our only success lies in a God who is everything–everything and anything we need. If God were to withhold his power, love, and grace, we would shrivel up into nothing. Without Him any attempt we make on our own is insufficient compared to His greatness. Why then do we struggle on our own? Why do we not cry out to Him and ask for His help to raise our children, to be the kind of wife our husband needs, and to do our job–our God assigned job? When I asked God this question, He had a one word reply. “Doubt.”
Today, I have seen my failure to trust God, and I have seen my deep need for Him to simply live as He intends. I think I’ll go and spend some time confessing my doubt, meditating on His greatness, and asking for a fresh filling of His power and grace. For nothing is impossible with God…not even writing a book.