Sometimes I act like God is stingy. I don’t recall ever saying that out loud until now, nor do I remember thinking it. But my actions have stated it many times loud and clear. Using my feeble attempts to get what I want without asking God first, or asking but not waiting on His timing is an example of this.
I wonder what would happen if I were courageous enough to simply trust God with Christ’s words. “Not my will, but yours be done.” Perhaps God would do more than I would think to ask of Him. Maybe He just might knock my socks off!
That would be magnificent. There’s only one problem. I prevent Him from blessing me in this way. You see, as long as I have my own agenda in life, God can’t bring me up to speed to His. I imagine God sitting in the heavens shaking His head at me wondering when I’m going to let go and really trust His plan for my life.
Oh, how my own plans hinder me spiritually and keep me from His course. Not allowing God to have his way, makes me of no use to Him. In fact, it makes me a hindrance. If I’m a hindrance, then God will only find another committed heart to work through. This is not my heart’s desire.
My heart is for God and Him alone.
Many years ago, by the Spirit of God, I was compelled to give my life entirely to Him. When counterfeit goals and passions slither into my life, God gently reminds me of my true goal. It’s a goal I wrote in my journal nearly 20 years ago. I’m to know God and make Him known through a surrendered life. While God’s will was clear, I struggled.
About 5 years later, I took a piece of paper and made a contract with God. I signed over my life asking Him to keep it because I could not. Ever since, He has held true to our agreement. when I go off course, He guides me back.
Dying to self, isn’t the end of life. It’s when I truly began to live. God has knocked my socks off on more than one occasion. I’ve had dreams come true that I didn’t even know I had. Why—because they were God’s dreams for my life. And they are way better than anything I could have dreamt of myself.
My passion is for every person to come to this place in their own life—a place of total surrender. It’s what you’re looking for. Would you let my words today be God’s gentle reminder that whatever you’re running after, God alone is the prize?
THE WINNER IS….
Forgive me for not posting the winner of the Hearts at Home bag yesterday. I had a sick child home from school. As any mother knows, a sick child requires much attention!
The Winner is…..Laurie!!! CONGRATS!!!!! If you’ll contact me with your home address at firstname.lastname@example.org, i’ll get it in the mail to you right away! It’s so cute. You’re gonna love it!