This is a very important day for me. I’m having surgery. I’ve been sick off and on over the past year without any clue to what was wrong. I went from one diagnosis to another. Boy, was that frustrating! Finally, I believe we’ve found the culprit—a large cyst that has consumed my left ovary. Upon finding the cyst, I was sent for an ultra sound to get a closer look at the guilty suspect. The results were neither good nor bad—just suspicious.
Suspicious of what you ask?
Yuck! That’s a downer, right?!
It was for me. At least at first anyway. I admit that I was a bit shaken to hear I was going to lose my ovary and more if cancer is present. Still, I held it together until I got to my car. Then, I lost it. The tears ran and so did my nose. Why does a person’s nose run when they cry? Anyway, I found myself in the “going home” traffic. At one point, the traffic came to a standstill so I cried harder. That’s when I noticed a construction guy peering at me through the window. He was resting his elbow on his open widow looking at me like I was a crazy woman. I gathered myself and stared forward. Yet I could feel him still looking at me. So, I rolled down the passenger side window and said, “I REALLY hate traffic jams.”
He replied, “Yes, you do.”
Immediately after hearing the news, my teammates called on our friends for prayer. I was overwhelmed with encouragement as the prayers, comments and verses poured in. On verse jumped out at me, Isaiah 53:1.
“Who would have thought God’s saving power would look like this?”
I never thought of it like that. God could be answering my prayer through the discovery of my cyst. I wanted healing, but the doctors didn’t know where to begin. Now we have a beginning place so there’s nowhere to go but up from here! I would have never guessed his saving; healing power would look like this—surgery and possible cancer. But God…He doesn’t play by the rules, does he? His thoughts and His ways are higher than ours. My desire is to bring glory to God in all things. What better way is there to make God look good than trusting Him though the trails of our lives???
It’s already begun. My husband, Pat, and I witnessed to the nurse when I pre-registered at the hospital on Wed. Today, I’m going to give her a copy of my book and our P31 Woman magazine. I’d say God set that opportunity up for us to make Him look good, wouldn’t you? I mean if a sick girl about to have surgery is more concerned about another person’s worries than her own, that makes God look good.
I hope you’ll pray for me today and for the days to come as I recover. Pray that no matter what God calls me to, I’ll make Him look good.
On the flip side, God has my back. Wednesday night, my doctor was able to secure the best oncologist in the city. I took that as a sign that God was already at work in the details of things. He is a detailed kind of God, you know. On one hand, I hope I won’t need the oncologist. On the other hand, I’m glad God has provided him if I do. That’s the thing about God. He knows what to provide and when. It may not always make sense to us at the time, but God is always working behind the scenes on our behalf. I don’t know who said it first, but this phrase has been going through my mind all day…
“God can do all things, but fail you.”
Can I get an A-men??
So no matter what the outcome of tomorrow brings…this I know. God is in control. He is aware of and at work in my circumstances, and He loves me beyond measure. That’s my message and I hope everyone I come in contact with will know it before I return home.
You are loved, and I thank you in advance for your prayers.
I’ll keep you posted as soon as I can.