Surgery was not what I envisioned when I joined the gym. I looked forward to a healthier, happier self—not to mention a leaner, meaner body who looked good in those new fangled colored skinny jeans.
Everyday at noon, I put on my sweats and t-shirt, laced up my running shoes, grabbed a bottle of water, and set out to slim down and tone up. Our class consisted of–me and my husband, a pretty blond, who worked in the building beside the gym, two ladies that attend my church, a young mom, a retired man and others who exchanged their lunch hour for a good workout.
Our instructor, a young guy who has a passion for fitness and is engaged to a future doctor (somebody has to pay the bills,) sets the clock, turns up the music and the workout begins. We move around the room in 60-second intervals changing exercises as we go until we’ve worked every muscle in the body, or so it feels.
I’m not sure when or how, but at some point during my workout, I injured my arm. The CAT scan showed a tear in my rotator cuff. Surgery was inevitable. It’s funny now that I think about it. I joined a gym to get healthy and ended up in the hospital. Go figure!
The surgery was hard, and this is coming from a woman who has given birth three times. I remember thinking, “This is not what I planned.” I had always assumed that Ps 37:4 was a guaranteed promise for me.
“He shall give you the desires of your heart.”
The desire of my heart was to be fit, not broken, but God doesn’t always “bring it to pass” the way we plan it.
The realization of unmet desires brought sadness and disappointment to my heart. Like me, you may have unmet desires. Perhaps you have a situation that has not turned out like you planned. I understand.
As I rested from surgery, I chose to rest in God, too. I know He wants me to be healthy. It may be that I have to find another way of going about it. Turning my focus on His heart, I no longer felt sad. God became my joy. I laid my burden on His strong and capable shoulders, and as I entrusted my life and cares to Him, I found rest. You and I can rest in the truth that God is going to bring about the best for our lives no matter our plan.
Will you rest in that truth with me today?
“We may plan, but the Lord directs our steps” (proverbs 16:9).
“Rest in the Lord” (Ps 17:7).