Do you ever lose your passion for God? Maybe I should ask it this way; do you ever lose your joy; your witness; your desire to pray and read God’s word? I do. Sometimes I don’t even notice it until I read a verses like 1 Peter 1:14-16. “As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy.”
I want to holy. I long to be holy. In fact, when I’m home alone and my kids are at school and my husband is at work, I can be holy. But that same afternoon, when the kids come home, I’m pressured to get them to ball practice, track practice, get their homework done, cook dinner, and leap tall buildings in a single bound, suddenly horns pop out of my head causing my heavenly halo to plummet to the ground. I know what you’re thinking. “It’s sad that her own kids cause her to sin that way.” I’m kidding of course. The truth is while we’d like to blame our sin on others, we can’t. Stress along with pleasures that entice us, sin that calls us, troubles that engulf us can cause you and me to drift. We become dry and apathetic to the things of God.
I don’t want to live this way. I want to live an extraordinary life! I want to live the life Christ died to give and that He lived here on earth. I want the abundant life filled with power, faith, hope, love, joy, peace and victory! I need a fresh touch of the Master’s hand. To have that life, I must awaken to the fact that I’ve left it. I’ve let the world pull itself down over my eyes blinding me from the life God intends me to live.
To remove those scales, you and I must ask God to revive us; refill us; refresh us with new fire—Holy Spirit fire—with new faith and new passion. We must seek Him until He had done just that. I have a favorite passage I use as a prayer when I find myself dry and longing for the nearness of God. It’s Ps 63.
I’m not going to type it out for you. I am going to encourage you to open your bible there and use those words as your prayer. Say the prayer over and over until you feel God’s abiding presence refresh your soul. He promises to be found by those who seek Him. He has promised to drawn near to those who draw near to Him. It’s the only way you and I can be holy and live an extraordinary life as God intends!
I’d love to know if you read this passage today and how God worked in your heart!
-Seeking Him Today and Always
Kim says
Micca, I have just discovered your blog. I read Psalm 63. This is my prayer. It is so hard sometimes to live this out though. I know what you mean about the kids coming home and it not being as easy to be holy. It’s easy for me to be “holy” when things are going well in my life and in my family’s life. I will read this Scripture everyday, till I believe it and live it.
Your story really touched me. I love how you’ve allowed God to use your story to help others. That is my desire. I was married to an abusive man for 20 years. He was a Southern Baptist pastor. WE have 3 children. My kids and I learned to play the happy preacher’s family game. But in 2005, we couldn’t pretend anymore. During those yours in bondage to abuse, I drank and abused prescription pills to cope. I am now in recovery. We’ve been gone from him for over 2 years now. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done…to leave him. I finally got the courage to leave. I went to rehab for my addiction, and today I’m on a journey of health, wholeness, and happiness. I’m not there yet and neither are my kids. In fact, we have a very long way to go. But…we’re getting there. I’m going through major struggles with my kids right now, but today is a good day b/c I’m clean and sober and I’m free. THat’s a good day for me.
Thank you so much for the way you give of yourself in the Prov. 31 devotions and your blog. I pray that God will bless you and continue to use you.
In Christ,
Kim for Tifton, GA.
elaine @ peace for the journey says
Micca:
What a beautiful portrait of “thirst”–both yours and King David’s. I particularly resonate with vs. 6 because things in my life always seem darkest at night; therefore, when going to bed, I immerse myself in a great story of the Bible. I read it a couple of times…pray accordingly, and then go to sleep imagining myself somewhere within the scene.
By doing this I can honestly say that “on my bed, I remember my God; I think about him through the watches of my night.”
This has been a huge comfort to me over the past few years, and my rest is always more complete and peaceful.
Thanks for sharing your heart and your passion for God. My heart stirs in similar portion.
peace~elaine